ah, poop.

It feels like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

After coming home for Thanksgiving, it really hit me how much I miss home, and how uneasy I've been feeling lately. Sure, studying and stuff is going great, but I've always been anxious about missing out on things happening at home. For instance, my sister's band Christmas band concert. Or my brother's hockey games. When I say I miss it, I don't mean like a simple thought dashing through my head. I mean like hardcore, wanting-to-be-home- type deal. So what do I do?

The best nursing program in North America is in my backyard, more or less. It's a fraction of the price here, and way closer to home. It's unlikely that all of my courses would transfer over, which would mean that I would start over again in January, the winter intake. Poop.

This is the worst part. To resign from my classes here, and get 50% back, I have to let the important people know by Thursday, IE TOMORROW. No pressure.

This is my education, I need to be enjoying it. But can I say that I truly am? If I left, who would I be missing? So I've gained a few friends on Facebook - I honestly couldn't say if we would remain friends after this year.

Going home feels weak, like I couldn't stand being away. It's also disappointing to think that all the time, effort, and money my family and I have spent in getting myself here has been a let down.

I really need to sort this stuff out quickly, and then stand by my choice. But what should I choose?