Friday, October 09, 2009

oh dear.

I believe that it is pretty good timing that I'm going home for Thanksgiving. I have one razor left, and it's full of goop. Like, the sick kind you get when you shave over deodorant or body wash. I'm estimating I have 1/2 a shave job left in it... which I'm saving for tomorrow morning's pit job. Lovely. But hey, at least it's not shorts weather back home, right?

In today's HKIN (human kinetics) lab, we did Body Comp. It is the crasher of self esteems. For mine, anyways. I got told from two different charts that I was obese. I'm trying to remain calm about the absolute insanity we must follow in order to feel healthy. Last weight, during the Muscle lab, I scored 'high performance' for all the labs. This week, I'm obese. WTF.

But I have been thinking. I'm not fat. My gut doesn't hang over my pants, and my thighs don't thunder when I walk. I can see my toes, and I have no double chins. I can shop in regular clothing stores, and don't have to order special-size bras. But being healthy is important, and I can improve in so many ways. Just cause I look fine doesn't mean I necessarily am. My eating habits here are not exceptional, but then again, I'm a little too hard on myself with the whole dieting thing. Despite that, I believe it is time for an overhaul. As in, fitting in exercise regardless - and finding a way to maintain that for a more than a week. Also, snacking choice womp here. Actually, they rock - oatmeal cookies and pretzels make any tummy happy, but not the waist line. So I need to find good things to snack on. Like, nuts from home. Low fat yogurt. Fruit. Veggies. The usual. It's just a zillion time tougher here as you have to buy it at the store or consciously look for it in the Caf. But this has come to be something I need to do. I'm 'grown up' now, so I should start acting like it. I need to grow a backbone of self control and just do it. And I will. This is the beginning of my plan. But what the heck, I just made it public. I guess there's nothing a little accountability won't do for ya, eh?

Have a Happy Turkey Day weekend.

D.


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