I suppose my time for having a childish fear of cooties should be over. WAY over.
Sadly, they aren't. Boys still have cooties. And they scare the poop out of me.
For example, look at my relationship with Joel. To date, we've had about 7 random encounters (not that I've been counting or anything) and about 5 of them have been so awkward that I've wanted nothing more than to be swallowed by the earth. Some of them have involved random mumbo-jumbo rambling on my behalf, accompanied with silences so awful its painful to breath. Most of them, however, consist me of seeing him, pretending I didn't see him/hiding, and then carrying on as if this awkward silent meeting had never occurred.
That's why, folks, I'm going to be single for a long, long time.
I come up the best responses and the most clever things to say as soon as I'm out of his sight/he's out of mine. I find the gumption to smile, say 'hello', and strike up a conversation. But it doesn't do much good when I'm already 12 floors up, out the door, or in another room. I feel like I'm playing the game in kindergarden, the one where you bat eyes at a boy then pretend he doesn't exist, but then decide to say hello and follow it up with a good dose of silence... yup. I am a kindergardener at heart.
Besides being inept at socializing, school has been grand. A tad stressful with several assignments due all at once, but ah, such is life. It's tough figuring out what the professors want - paying attention and taking notes isn't enough to prove your worth, which is how high school often worked. I've meet some fun girlfriends throughout my classes, so between studying and coffee, the weeks zoom by. I've already been here for 5 weeks. 5 entire weeks. I can't wrap my head around how fast everything has gone by, and how fast everything will continue to go. I'm soaking it up the best I can but thankfully I still have a while to go!
Dinner planning is calling, which makes me rather excited because my culinary skills are slowly growing. Hold onto your pants - not only can I scramble eggs, but I can put them on a bagel with salsa to make a funky-lunch-bagel-thingy!! Which is so yummy, btw. I am very proud of my creative endeavors. Plus, I can make pasta and top it off with chicken, sauce and mushrooms to call it a meal! With a little bit of innovation and a dash of hunger, I've been able to eat more than pre-packaged food. I wonder what tonight's adventure will be?
Love, Dani.