I'm so tired of caring for patients who are my age!!
I struggle caring for this age group the most because A) my heart breaks/I want to cry - they should be out in the world, enjoying life and B) see the previous point.
Good grief. The nature of our unit does admit a lot of young individuals with cystic fibrosis (short life expectancy) and interstitial or unexplainable lung diseases/cancers (ie: construction workers - young men).
I'm tired of it because it hurts my heart to see them there. No young man should sit in a hospital room all summer, unable to enjoy the sunshine, because his chest tubes are attached to wall suction. No mother should have to change the code status of her 19 year old to palliative because his second set of donor-lungs are failing. No young wife should die while waiting for a set of lungs, for the second time, after beating cancer as a teenager.
I do not resent caring for them at all, not for second. But it is challenging because it boldly reminds me of this emotional heart I have, which I often like to keep hidden and neatly tucked away.
D.
I struggle caring for this age group the most because A) my heart breaks/I want to cry - they should be out in the world, enjoying life and B) see the previous point.
Good grief. The nature of our unit does admit a lot of young individuals with cystic fibrosis (short life expectancy) and interstitial or unexplainable lung diseases/cancers (ie: construction workers - young men).
I'm tired of it because it hurts my heart to see them there. No young man should sit in a hospital room all summer, unable to enjoy the sunshine, because his chest tubes are attached to wall suction. No mother should have to change the code status of her 19 year old to palliative because his second set of donor-lungs are failing. No young wife should die while waiting for a set of lungs, for the second time, after beating cancer as a teenager.
I do not resent caring for them at all, not for second. But it is challenging because it boldly reminds me of this emotional heart I have, which I often like to keep hidden and neatly tucked away.
D.
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